moony_blues: (Disney: SB - Sad Squirrel)
2012-07-13 11:18 pm

Life really sucks right now

Every passing day, my brother goes farther off the deep end. I'm really scared that this time he could actually harm someone. I'd be lying if I said that it wasn't affecting me as much as it does my parents. I'm worried and scared. I haven't been sleeping well at all. My family has taken enough hard hits this year. We don't need this right now. We can't afford this right now.
moony_blues: (Default)
2012-06-27 08:39 pm

1315 - In 4 Bullet Points

~* Good thing: I have watched all three seasons of The Vampire Diaries. I'm hopelessly addicted. And, because of the Olympics, it'll be October before there are new episodes. *sigh* My favorite character is probably Damon. There's such a depth to the way his characterization has been written. And Ian Somerhalder is just gorgeous. Those eyes... I think I could get my fangirl on again for this one.

~* Good thing #2: We now have a pool. Let me tell you, nothing is better than a quick dip on a day that tops out at 100 degrees Fahrenheit. Now, if only I could get the chlorine stabilized...

~* Good thing #3 (I think): I've started an original fiction manuscript. I'm fairly certain it will never be published, but at least the creative juices are kind of flowing. If only I could get over the nagging self-consciousness, and delude myself into thinking that I actually have any skill at creating believable stories and multi-dimensional characters.

~* BAD thing: My brother is having another episode. This time, he's almost homicidal. And his two biggest targets for his rage are me and my father, for no reason at all. Matt and I are locked in our own house. We have to go out with the dogs when they need to do their business. I almost wish that permanent mental institutions still existed, because that's really what he needs right now. It's only a matter of time before he really hurts someone, or worse. I'm scared for him. I don't know what to do, other than lock my doors and hope he doesn't come calling.